Twenty-five years later, Sept. 11 remains a watershed moment, one with both personal and global implications.
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To mark the anniversary, TIME spoke to people with very different connections to the day, to hear about what they experienced at the time as well as the ripple effects.
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Others know about the tragedy mostly from history class.
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Others → know → class
One thing is clear: The attacks that changed the world also changed lives.
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I was 4½ when my dad died.
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dad → die → ?
I have only brief memories of that day.
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I remember my mom taking my twin brother and me out of preschool.
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mom → remember → preschool
I remember watching the TV at home and then going over to one of her friends’, whose husband was also a firefighter, and watching it there.
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We were so young, we didn’t really grasp what was actually going on.
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But as you get older, you start to realize what you’ve missed out on.
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It’s not quite the same as being sad because you miss someone close to you.
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It’s more like you’re sad because you didn’t really get to be close to them.
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My dad was a cop for 12 years and a firefighter for only 18 months, but joining the FDNY was always his plan.
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joining → join → FDNY
For as long as I can remember, I also wanted to be a firefighter.
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I did the entry exam when I was 18, even though they don’t take anyone until 21.
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I went to college, but I think I was just killing time.
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I dropped out after two years, as the process ramped up.
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My mom kept encouraging me to consider other things, but she knew I had put all my eggs in that basket.
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I loved the routine and discipline of the academy, and I really tried to earn my spot; I didn’t want to feel like I was getting special treatment.
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A lot of things about the fire department don’t change, and I remember thinking my dad might have stood right where I was standing, worrying about getting yelled at by some drill instructor for having a button undone.
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I don’t have many shared memories with him, but that came close.
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He worked in Brooklyn, just on the other side of the tunnel from the World Trade Center.
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I wanted to go to a different firehouse, to let the guys make up their mind about me without having known his reputation, so I’m in the Bronx.
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The firefighters I meet that knew him, I feel like they're happy to see that I'm on the job.
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On 9/11 I usually go to Mass at my firehouse and then drop by Ladder 101, where Dad worked.
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Last year for the first time I met someone who was actually riding that day, and he gave me the full rundown.
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They were staged at the mouth of the tunnel right under the towers, and as they sat there on the rigs, they watched the second plane come in.
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They could feel the impact and then they
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From what I understand, his group went up a way, came back down, and were in the lobby when the building collapsed.
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Dad was also a lifeguard at Overlook Beach in Long Island, and the lifeguards there put up a little memorial for him.
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My mom is not big on going to the firehouse or the ceremonies in the city on the anniversaries.
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I think it’s just too overwhelming.
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So we do a more casual gathering in the afternoon.
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It’s less somber, more a reason for everyone to just get together.
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Sometimes the attention that comes with being a legacy firefighter is uncomfortable, but not for the reasons you might think.
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I don’t have trouble talking about it; it was something that happened when I was young, but I had a happy childhood and a very fortunate life.
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I’m not looking for sympathy—I feel lucky to have had that role model of selflessness and self-sacrifice.
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On the other hand, I do miss having had a real relationship with my dad.
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Do I wish he was still alive?
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I sometimes wonder if I’d be different if I’d known my dad.
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…and 318 more, not listed.
The Aporia
