Roman Emperor and Stoic philosopher Marcus Aurelius once said, "If thou art pained by any external thing, it is not this thing that disturbs thee, but thy own judgment about it.
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that → say → it
If there is one thing my sons and I learned from my late wife Kim's fight against cancer, it was how to distinguish between traumatic life events over which we have no control and the power we have to respond to them as we choose.
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A few weeks ago, my sons and I watched "White Room," a short introspective film directed by JT Rees.
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sons → watch → Rees
The film tells the story of 24-year-old Reese, who has tried for years to avoid dealing with his feelings over his older sister Joy's death.
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who → tell → death
But grief has a way of lingering in our hearts while gnawing away at our inner peace.
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grief → have → peace
The movie is about sibling love and coming to terms with the loss of Reese’s older sister.
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movie → come → sister
"White Room" is based on JT's own life experience.
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Room → base → experience
When he was 9 years old, he lost his 12-year-old sister Jessie to brain cancer.
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he → lose → cancer
My sons and I never met Jessie Rees, but we have bonded deeply with her family over shared grief from losing loved ones to cancer.
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we → meet → cancer
And for years, we've been soothing our broken hearts by partnering with the Jessie Rees Foundation to support kids in the fight for their lives against pediatric cancer.
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we → soothe → cancer
We were always a close-knit family, but now it was the three of us, whom my late wife Kim lovingly called "my boys," facing the post-traumatic stress Kim's fight against cancer had left in its wake.
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fight → knit → wake
That's why we identified so profoundly with JT's alter ego and protagonist Reese when Joy showed him how to process his sorrow by understanding it was not his fault.
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it → identify → sorrow
Grief can paralyze us.
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Grief → paralyze → us
But even if we have no control over the disease that took our loved one's life, we absolutely can make our own decisions about what to do about it.
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we → have → it
"I had cancer!" Joy screams.
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Joy → have → cancer
She comforts Reese and exhorts him never to give up.
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She → comfort → him
"It's OK to cry," Joy says.
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Joy → cry → ?
"I'll always be right here watching you.
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I → watch → you
You know where to find me."
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You → know → me
Joy encourages Reese to "Live your life.
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Joy → encourage → life
Promise me you'll try."
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you → promise → me
Grief can paralyze us.
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Grief → paralyze → us
But even if we have no control over the disease that took our loved one's life, we absolutely can make our own decisions about what to do about it.
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we → have → it
I honor Kim's memory by fulfilling the promise I made to her on her deathbed to do my best to ensure our sons live their lives to the fullest while carrying with them the grief of losing their mom to cancer when they were only 8 and 11 years old.
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they → honor → cancer
And so, on the day after their mom passed away, my sons went to school just as they had throughout Kim's fight against cancer, including her last few months in hospice.
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they → pass → hospice
They expressed their sorrow with the help of a service dog and art therapy.
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They → express → dog
They went to swim practice and played outside with their friends.
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They've never stopped doing the things that make kids' lives fun and meaningful.
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lives → stop → things
Long before my wife was stricken with cancer, I learned that lesson about resilience while serving overseas with the CIA in a Middle East war zone.
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Upon returning late one night to our overseas field station from leave, I was informed at the airport that one of the CIA's most decorated, courageous and brilliant paramilitary officers had been killed in action.
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one → return → action
We held a memorial service and never stopped carrying in our hearts the grief over our loss.
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But we also got right back to our counterterrorism mission and honored our fallen colleague's memory by relentlessly taking the fight to the enemy as he would have wanted.
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he → get → enemy
And therein lies the meaning of the CIA's Memorial Wall in the lobby of the Original Headquarters Building.
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meaning → lie → Building
Every time I walked into CIA Headquarters, I would look up at the stars on the wall commemorating our fallen heroes and repeat the same ritual when I departed at the end of the day, always deep in thought about honoring the legacy of those we lost.
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"White Room" is a must-see film, especially for anyone who has experienced loss over which they never had any control and suffered all the collateral damage.
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My sons and I miss our Kim every day.
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sons → miss → Kim
But together we have learned how to discover and build resilience in our broken hearts.
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we → learn → hearts
But let your grief shape how you honor the memory of the one you lost.
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you → let → one
And remember you're not alone.
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Your loved one is with you, an angel on your shoulders.
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one → love → shoulders
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