That was the message one of Sabrina Bahsoon’s 800,000-plus TikTok followers left after the influencer, better known as “Tube Girl,” disappeared from social media for months.
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In fact, she revealed in a recent TikTok, she had spent four months hospitalized after developing sudden episodes of psychosis — and doctors may not have found the unlikely cause if not for her father’s pushing.
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Bahsoon said the ordeal began in March, the same day she filmed one of her signature Tube videos with British girl group FLO.
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After returning home, she began crying hysterically.
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she → return → home
“I was screaming, shouting, acting very psychotic,” she said.
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“Little did I know this was my first episode of psychosis.”
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By the following morning, she had broken up with her then-boyfriend, a decision that caught her sisters off guard.
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They rushed over and found her in a distressed state, posting videos of herself screaming and crying and attempting to harm herself.
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Her sisters called an ambulance, and Bahsoon spent two days in the emergency room, where she continued behaving erratically and barely slept.
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Despite her worsening condition, she recalled, she was discharged.
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“This is where I start to lose my memory,” she said.
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Based on what she later pieced together, Bahsoon became increasingly agitated at home, throwing things and attempting to hit her siblings.
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When her family called for help, police arrived.
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police → call → help
“I was taken away in handcuffs because I was so violent, they had to restrain me,” she said.
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After being sedated, she was transferred to a mental health facility and diagnosed with psychosis.
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Bahsoon said doctors treated her with antipsychotic medication, but her condition continued to deteriorate.
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She recalled losing about 26 pounds, becoming catatonic and struggling to speak, eat and sleep.
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“I lost control of my mind, my body,” she said.
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After consulting a neurologist he knew, her father asked for further testing — specifically for anti-NMDA receptor encephalitis, a rare but serious autoimmune condition that can cause psychiatric symptoms, seizures and movement problems.
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Bahsoon said doctors initially resisted the request but eventually agreed to run the tests after about two months.
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Scans revealed an ovarian teratoma, a type of tumor that can trigger the immune system to attack the brain.
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system → reveal → brain
Ultimately, she was diagnosed with anti-NMDA (anti-NMDAR) receptor encephalitis.
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Anti-NMDAR is a particular concern for young women, often striking in their 20s.
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NMDAR → strike → 20s
Early symptoms can look like a psychiatric illness, including psychosis, agitation and dramatic personality changes, making the disease difficult to recognize.
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While many autoimmune diseases are more common in women, a recent study of over 6,600 autoimmune patients found that women reported psychiatric misdiagnoses 50% more often — and psychosomatic misdiagnoses 75% more often — than men.
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Bahsoon compared her experience to “Brain on Fire,” a 2016 blockbuster movie based on the 2012 memoir by New York Post journalist Susannah Cahalan, who chronicled her own harrowing battle with the disease after initially receiving an incorrect diagnosis.
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The hospital later apologized for keeping Bahsoon in psychiatric care for several months without testing for the condition sooner, she said.
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“That’s a huge chunk of my life that I will never get back, that I probably won’t ever remember.”
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in June, Bahsoon underwent surgery to remove the tumor.
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She credited her surgical team with preserving her ovaries, and said she also received two rounds of immunotherapy to help eliminate the harmful antibodies.
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She was discharged in July.
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“This altered my life,” she said tearfully, describing the loss of memories, the end of her relationship and the trauma of spending months in the hospital.
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“And now I’m out in the real world and I’m trying to figure out what my new normal is like.”
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Bahsoon said she considers herself fortunate to have received a diagnosis and treatment, particularly after seeing other patients who lacked family members advocating for them.
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“Anyone who has these symptoms and is just diagnosed as psychosis, I encourage you to fight and get the extra scans and do the extra tests.”
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